Life changes minute to minute…

…these past few days have … Stretch that this whole month has been shit… I  can’t believe how things have been going… Idk what to do anymore but I guess I’m just going with the flow I really hope all these covid blows over cuz I’m not going to keep doing this.😔…. I don’t want to say to much cuz then I feel like I’m taking a trip back to the pass…😔

Idk where my marbles are at…

…I haven’t been on in awhile…. I guess every time it’s when I’m really sad 😢and depressed… I thought I could trust but turns out I can’t… I thought I wouldn’t see those words from you.. F**k Idk what to do anymore?!?!.. Maybe everyone is right I’m not not stable😔🚪 I just wanna run 🏃away so people don’t have to put up with me… When I’m by myself, no one will care.. It takes the pressure off them so I don’t hold them down anymore… I’m hurting but I’ll put that aside to “tape” your broken heart.. I’m not the one I want…  #relationships #world #broken heart #depressed #anxiety #mentality 

The call I shouldn’t have picked up…

…you know how you haven’t seen or heard from someone in your life that may have caused you pain at one point in your life?… Does it ever happen when the other side sees what happen to you to them and say you’ve done them wrong? …. That’s what I had just a few minutes ago… Makes me depressed, and hurt that there’s is no hope so let it go… That’s probably the reason why the universe kept it from happening cause it’ll just cause the heart to break again for the thousand time… They still the same they haven’t changed still the same monster that I saw not in the closet but behind close doors..#whatever #world #LIFE #thoughts #story #depressed #anxiety #mentally #unstable 

Whatever you want it to be

…hello haven’t blogged in awhile.. But here I am… I been doing good. I know I complain a lot but I’m not going to. I’m the fuck- up. I’m the loser, I talk about not being so much.. I live a pretty good life. I got married when I was 23. We’re still 7 years 💪. You don’t know who I am but I don’t either.. I’m still learning about myself.. I know I complain when I have no reason to cause I have everything I could possibly want and more.. I know I talk shit and I wish I could take it all back and I do take it all back.. People spend their time trying to find their other half not knowing sometimes you don’t have to be pushy about rushing a relationship. Take your time. I know I talked out of his name and I shouldn’t have done that.. When you love someone No really love someone is when your not around that they got your back and stand up for you the most.. My husband is the best thing that has happened for me.. He works his ass off, he comforts me, he loves me for me. And I’m not a big make- up person so he loves me when I’m ugly. We laugh at things we’d only get.. That’s love right there!❤ Like I said you don’t know me but now you know something about me..I’m married, I’m in my late 20s, I have a son, don’t get on Facebook or instagram (anymore). Thanks for reading my thoughts, I know it’s boring.. I’ll be back to bor you to death again😁

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To be continued…

.. Anyway she doesn’t remember a lot of good times but there were times where her family would go bbq at the Banquets park in texas. When they went it was fun to play sports because they had a whole team. Basketball, baseball and kick ball. She loved to see her family have fun instead of having heart ache. Of course most of the time they were bbq because they didn’t have a steady place to stay. There was a period of time that they moved to Orange grove, tx. When they moved to Orange grove the house was old with tall grass. The back  door was covered in bees. There was no light or electricity. Because they didn’t have any hot water they used to go into town and fill up 2 buckets of hot water so they can take a quick bath by the time the last person got to take a bath the water was already cold. They all slept on the floor. They spent most of the time outside playing. Her parents use to push the her and her brothers and sisters outside to play outside all day. They couldn’t come back inside for nothing until her parents decided to let them come back in… 

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Long way from home..

… She grow up in a small town called Alice, tx, in 1990. ALice, Texas is a town mostly populated with 87.8% Hispanics. It’s located 45 miles west of Corpus Christi, tx. ALice has a history with cattle shipping dating back to 1888-1895. It is the birthplace of Tejano music. The population has raised since the 90s at 19,104 according to the 2010 census as still growing.. It also happens to have the world’s tallest cement water tower, designed by the Guinness book of records in 1976 it stands at 165 feet tall. She was third oldest to a mother in her early twenties and a father 8 years older than her mother. From what she can remember her parents didn’t get along with each other. They were always arguing and in return, they got kicked out of many motels. There was 8 of them, 2 adults and 6 children. When she was in kindergarten the school was right across the street from where they lived so if she got sent home it wasn’t to far to walk a few feet. She did get sent home several times. One time, she can remember was for her mom pinching her leg and her teacher sent her home because it was big enough to see. Back then the teachers could send kids home home . Principals asked permission to give kids paddles. They use to call it licks, or they got Saturday detention.. Her parents trying to keep their lives from spilling into the surface before people saw how they were living…. 

To continue…

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